i removed

here i am
suspended
between then and there
now
a glimpse
of dark nothingness
as my mind
dissolves into everything
expanding stillness
and silken breath
there just is
the smooth peace
of i removed

truth be told

something is happening
a transformation
inner becoming outer and
melting into the world
not the secular world
not humanity's world
but an extraordinary world

is the world an illusion?
or is the illusion the
humanization of the world?
the thought of being above
of being master, holding dominion over
the illusion of ownership
when the truth lies in belonging

the world is not an illusion
the thinking of humanity is
and soon the truth will be told
humanity as one strand
in the web of life
not apart from or above
but belonging to

it is not the physical world
that will dissolve
but humanity's thinking
shifting into an understanding
of equal magnificence and
aligned with the essence
of an enchanted world

just standing

standing in the light of your love
just standing
resisting the urge to reach out and grasp hold

standing in the light of your love
just standing
releasing the need to control

standing in the light of your love
just standing
accepting the chaos of feelings and thoughts

standing in the light of your love
just standing
allowing the fears to consume and dissolve

standing in the light of your love
just standing
feeling the pull of your heart on mine

standing in the light of your love
just standing
receiving the moment you reach for me

broken open

i want
to be broken open
the hardness of my heart
pried away
revealing
a softness

i want

to be broken open

fractures and fissures

revealing

a passage

i want
to be broken open
fear and resistance
shields and blockades
crumbling
to sand
revealing
an inner space

i want
to be broken open
feeling the willingness
to receive
and revealing
the sun

in my soul

end of a dream

leaves of the tree
delicate and fragile
unfurl
bringing life to a dream
a creation lived
vibrant and bold
as seasons pass
a natural cycle
is brought to rest
withering and frail
the essential ending
an expression of readiness
releasing to receive
the beauty and potential
unfurling
in a delicate
new beginning

twilight

twilight
eclipses
the movement of my soul
and i reach out
for heaven's embrace
this star
burning in the night sky

within her
i am absorbed
nourished
warm pulse of the earth
flowing through my veins
like a red river
of life

through him
i am breathed
sustained
effervescent light
filling the emptiness
like blue fills the sky
on a cloudless day

dawn
emerges
from the dance of my soul
and i receive
heaven's embrace
this star
shining in the night sky

nathea

i hear her calling
my eternal Mother
from far beyond
this earthen veil
her voice ripples through me
and lingers sweetly
upon the precipice of time

the delicate chanting 
of my name dances
on the cool flickers of sunshade
that grace the wilderness
do not forget
her luminous whispers resonate
as my naked feet partake
of her euphoric essence
and my skin inhales
her fragrant pulse
invoking a wildness within me

a wildness unleashed
to roam free of this world
the truth of who i am
arising to walk
with alien footsteps
on this illusive creation
and i remember
for a moment
i remember

one step beyond the clouds

one step
beyond the clouds
and into
the radiant light
of my heart

tendrils that have
threatened
to consume me
dissolving
themselves consumed
by the light
that fills me

and i step forward
into a new life
no longer defined
by history
but lived through
the love that is

hekate

sweet goddess of the dark night
after years of fruitless searching
your arrival is immanent
i sense the vitality of your presence
on the doorstep of my soul

walk with me, you whisper
your voice ruptures the threshold of resistance
grasping hold of my life
you usher me to certain destruction
tortured steps into the underworld

the glow of your flickering torch
softly illuminates my tired face
a tormented cascade that carries me
floating heavily, deeper and deeper
in a cold, black, bottomless sea

i have been ripped apart, devoured
while you steadily kept watch
at your alter i offer my remnants
the refuse of a surrendered life
an existential emptying into the void

your lunar light nourishes me
as i am absorbed into the mystery
light and dark in me become as one
and i stand at the edge of the unknown
turning to face the brilliant light of day

little drops of moonbeams

little drops of moonbeams
swimming in the stars
twirling past the milky way
and dancing around mars

little drops of moonbeams
playing in the night
shining on the clouds above
that hide their brilliant light

little drops of moonbeams
whispering a prayer
bathed in lunar energy
soaring through the air

little drops of moonbeams
falling all around
tinkering on window panes
and splashing to the ground

little drops of moonbeams
sweet nature's lullaby
rejoicing in their journey
as they travel from the sky

life emerging

there is no spring
for a life emerging
no breath
no cry
no vision nor thought
catapulted into
a dizzying cacophony
confusing chaos of
bright lights, colors, sounds
mesmerizing
overwhelming and exciting
spinning upside down
spiraling inside out
and suddenly

stop

a split second
collapsing into the silence
of an eternal pause
the space between
two worlds
before arising
arriving
breaching the surface
with a rushing gasp for air
relief of
the first breath
which is
life emerging

the bridge

i went for a walk one spring day
in the woods and far away
journeying on trails lined with trees
accompanied only by the breeze
i came to a bridge across a stream
upon it i sat to write and dream
dangling my feet in the water's cool flow
awareness inside beginning to grow

the paths continued in either direction
upon this life they placed their reflection
across the bridge one path did lead
the way i came or so it seemed
so i chose to go the other way
no time to waste or spend in delay
and this path it did twist and turn
obstacles i faced as i continued to learn

but the way i chose did bring me back
many months later on that bridge i sat
stream had run dry but peace remained
as i sought solace in the space i claimed
this time i chose to walk across
feeling confused and at a loss
i suddenly realized i had been deceived
for this path was not what i had once perceived

i strolled through marsh on solid support
my mind of stories i tried to sort
i leaned on boulders to take my rest
experiencing life as would nature suggest
blankets of gold on the earth all around
and here i sat upon the ground
the trees extend their comforting embrace
in this loving connection i find my grace

to this sacred place i do surrender
this journey i shall always remember
spirit whispers and i heed the call
while one by one rocks roll from the wall
until the passage is free and clear
and i can walk without hindrance or fear
as i gently tread on that bridge again
and journey on til i reach my end

memories

of moments
stolen and held
within the garden
of my heart
beautiful blossoms of
colors bold and bright
flowers rich in fragrance
unfolding as
glorious paintings
upon the canvas of
my soul
an awakening
never to be
forgotten

cloudy days

canvas of sky extends
forever and beyond
up ahead on the horizon
earth and sky
become one
and paved asphalt
transforms to
folds and bunches

a light of
unseen source
yet known
illuminates
billows of white
to varying shades
and shadows
demarcations and delineations

revealing a depth
to existence
never in darkness
but always to remain
shining bright
within the grey
somehow a reminder
of life beyond

she knocks

steady knocking
as if in the distance
a gentle tapping
through the resistance

wake up she says
speaking within
breathing into herself
this dance to begin

wake up to life
wake up to love
wake up to self and
the mystery thereof

remnants

in the space that exists
between light and dark
there's an ember that burns
a glimmer, a spark
shifting and dancing
it hints at desire
yielding shadows
of light and
remnants of fire
as heat slowly fades
dying to coal
all that remains
of emptyness so whole

every day

there exists
a love
that permeates
the being
of the soul
and gives rise to
an expression
of life
that lives beyond
any glimpse
of perception
or perfection
a joining of all

colorful

awakening
to life
unveiled
transformed

not black
or white
not any shade
or depth of gray
nor blindly existing
in absence of light

rather

inclusive
streams of
full spectrum
swirling, dancing
rainbows
dynamic and
vibrant

appearing occasionally
in the rain
watering the flowers
reflections on
street signs
refraction through
windshields
bursting around
nightly headlights

and within

sparkling eyes

always as
reminders
of life
so colorful

daughter

have you heard
from your
motherfather today
she asks
and we giggle
lovingly
a secret silliness
that she combines
them
to one word
until today
suddenly
i recognize
her wisdom

have you heard
from your
motherfather today?

yes
in every moment
in every space
i listen
as my feet
touch the earth
my eyes
capture
sunlight flickering
through the trees
as i am
absorbed
by ocean depths
and grasses green
as i lean
against rough bark
staring
at blue sky
painted
with whispers of white
as i am
embraced
by moon and stars
and velvet night
as i taste
rain on my skin
and feel
its sound as it falls
and inhale
rainbows so
colorful

have you heard
from your
motherfather today?

yes
in every moment
in every space
in laughter
mingling tears
birth and
death
celebration
rejoicing yet
even still
in challenges faced
sorrow
pain
learning and
unlearning
hands held
love shared
grace
dreams turned
to reality
within connections
of light
reflecting
every step
upon this journey

yes
i hear
every day
in every moment
and i know
i am loved
every day
in every moment
as daughter

slipping

reaching
depths expanding
encouraged
intensity builds
moments
slipping
just beyond
out of reach
unfolding and
exposed
spiraling
lost control
get a grip
catch it
catch it
no
let it go
release the grip
lose control
let it slide
let it slip
spinning reeling
melting flowing
rushing falling
embracing
unknown